"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me."

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Moving is a Strange Thing

When Mitch and I got engaged, moving away seemed so far into the future that it didn't occur for a long time how much it would affect my life. I was so excited, and with good reason! When we got engaged we had six months until we would be with eachother every day, all day so the only thing keeping me motivated while we were apart was the fact that soon, I would be moving away to be with him. All in good time, I would be with my best friend for eternity. It was such a comforting thought to have found my eternal companion, and that in time I would get to be with him, that moving did not phase me.
The first time I moved in my life was just up the road from our original home in South Weber. Not a big change. The second time I moved was when I moved for school up to Logan. That was a bit of a bigger change than the first. It was a new chapter in my life in which I gained my first real testimony of attending church on my own. I grew in a lot of ways from moving to Logan. No, I did not learn to cook, like I thought I would. But I did learn what made someone a good room mate, and what habits made people harder to live with. I learned how to depend on myself for things, and I learned that I could be an independant, happy person, away from my family. It prepared me in a lot of ways for what was to come with me moving to North Carolina.
My latest move was from Utah to Durham, North Carolina. It is an exciting adventure that I have looked forward to for the past 6 months and it is everything I though it would be, plus some things I did not expect. For example, I didn't realize how afraid of leaving the apartment I would be. I have lived in a new town before, so what makes Durham any different? To me, it is a scary though that I have no idea where I am if I leave the apartment complex. I don't know my way around town and I am never going to run into anyone I know because I know so few people here. My family is not an hour away like they were, though they are a phone call away (which does help!), and I was thrown completely out of my daily activities that I was so used to in Logan. Moving here, for me was literally like moving to a different planet. Some people are great at moving and changes and crap like that. I am not one of those people. Change freaks me out. I like things to be what they have always been. Moving here is a very different adventure than I ever planned for myself.
Although scary, moving can be a very positive thing. It has thrown me past my comfort zone (with the love of my life, thankfully), and onto a path I never planned. This path is making me better though. It is already making me a stronger person than I was in Utah, and it is a pleasant trial that I get to go through. Yes, as soon as I drive past the "Welcome Home" sign at the front of our complex, I experience a small anxiety attack that makes my heart beat too fast and I begin to slightly panic, but in time I think I will drive with the comfort I used to know in South Weber, or at least the comfort level I had in Logan. I will begin to know more people here and maybe even run into someone I know at Kroger. Once I have a job hopefully I will get back into a routine that settles my life down and gives me structure; I need structure! The point is, everything that we as indivivuals struggle with, gets better in time. Our human nature is to adjust and I trust myself enough to know that I can find normalcy in this new beautiful town.
Moving is a change that forces us to do new things, meet new people, and change our routines. It pushes us out of our comfort zone, and leads us to become better people. Some changes in life we chose, and others we don't. I think we can turn any change or challenge we face into a positive influence on ourselves. It is up to us!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Married Life Thus far...

Wow... Married Life :). To sum it up, married life is pretty much bom.com. Seriously lovin it! Granted we have only been married 12 days, but no complaints so far! To explain marriage in a simple way, it is like playing house with your best friend all day, every day, and don't say you have no idea what that's like because we have all been there. Even boys. And yes, you liked it. ;)

When we arrived in North Carolina, Mitchell carried me through the threshhold of our third floor apartment in Durham, to the living room. Which consisted of a card table, a camp chair, and an ironing board. We are living the life I tell you what! ;) We purchased a couch the other day though, and are going to pick it up tomorrow, and we are in the market for a washer and dryer on craigslist... fun stuff. Seriously though, this is a very fun part of life we are going through, being happy with nothing is a great sign for our marriage I think!

Among other things, my parents ended their trek across the country in a moving van, towing my car yesterday! So tonight my husband (love sayin that!) and I will enjoy sleeping in a queen bed rather than the curry/smoke smelling, twin mattress that we have lived on the past few days! Marriage is really an adventure... but one dang good one.

I just want to say thank you to my husband for the amazing honeymoon trip he planned for us, and for the beautiful, safe, clean apartment he found. He really is my best friend and I feel so lucky I found him. Love you babe!

And to everyone else.... I'll let ya know when things get rough here in the beautiful Carolinas! ;)